i miss those times i get to row and train with my team.
attachment sucks. it made me can’t train with the team. it made me become so white now. had dinner with my teammates and there were some new juniors who just join the club and they ask how come they don’t see me during trainings. ARGH! i hate it when people ask why i’m missing from training. the feeling is like so not nice because i’m like the always present kind for training.
i will be back for training once i’m done with this shit. but then i will be an alumni by then because agm is coming soon. will the team welcome me back? i don’t want to go back and yet feel not welcome.
i want to row! like with my team, with the sun smiling at me 
